We are
#45 on the Boys list and
#57 on the Girls list.
We also received word that we should now expect to wait 12-18 months from receipt of our dossier to referral. I expected that so it really wasn't "news' to me. We have now been on the wait list for almost 6 months.
It's just wait and see mode now. No one knows how the changes in Ethiopia will affect families from receiving referrals or bringing their children home. I'm trying to stay busy and not think about when we might receive a referral for our little one. So far I have been completely unsuccessful. I try to stay positive. It's hard though. I won't lie. I remember back 10 months ago when we worked our butts off to get all our paperwork notarized and ready only to sit back and wait almost 3 months for our homestudy to be drafted. And it would have taken longer but I fought (yes a few angry emails and calls to our local agency) for it to be completed. Once we were on the list I told myself ok relax. Just chill and enjoy the time to do couple things - vacation, movies, eating out. But I haven't been so good. I have my moments. I look at the toys and books and clothes I have been given from my nieces and sisters and I wonder, when.
I know this next year of waiting will be excruciating. Even more so than taking the bar exam......or having a kidney stone....(although now that I think about it, I was young, single and the ER doctors and nurse resembled McDreamy, McSteamy and oddly enough, C*urtis Stone.....)
I just hope this journey doesn't turn me bitter or into a weepy depressed mess. I hope I can muster the strength and grace so many others who have waited so long have shown. I hope my faith will sustain me and in the end I will be a mom.
Hang in there....it will happen. Not in the way or the time we expected, but it will happen. And in the end, that will be all that matters.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had words of wisdom for you. This process is excruciating, there's no two ways about it. Some very lucky families have an easy time with one, two, even more adopted kids. Others go through country closures, slowdowns, domestic placements that are revoked...it's brutal. There are others who understand. Reach out to them. I've found this blog world, for the most part, to be extremely supportive. Hang in there. This is not for the faint of heart. I struggle to keep some semblance of grace every day. Some days are better than others...
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