Happy Anniversary to us!
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
We visited friends from out of state this weekend. A couple and the beautiful newborn baby girl they adopted. Just one month ago they got a call and were told they were chosen by the birth mother and to fly out that evening to pick up the baby.
I would be lying if I didn't say I was envious. I would also be lying if I didn't say that the entire visit was difficult for me. I am so happy for them, but to see them beginning their family, holding their little one and being so in love with their child, all I could think of is when will it be our turn.
I think of our adoption every day. Every single day, several times a day. And lately the "when it happens" has been turning into "will it ever happen." Every day a little bit of me is discouraged and disheartened. Every day I feel a little less. I want this so much and there is nothing I can do but wait. And waiting sucks.